It’s coming upon the end of the year – family, holidays, eating delicious food, and spending way to much money. But there is something else that I (and I am sure a million other be do) around this time of year. I look back – look back at the past year, the goals I had set for myself, my failures and my accomplishments.
I had lofty goals for myself this year – and in all honestly, I feel like I failed 90% of them. One goal in particular was to shoot 12 weddings – I only did 9 – 3 short of my goal!! And I feel like giving up. I shouldn’t – but the feeling that I am just not good enough keeps creeping into the back of my head. I looked at my husband the other night and just burst into tears – but then he reminded that just because I didn’t reach the number of 12, I still reached 9 and I accomplished and learned so many things.
Another failed goal was to blog more. Honestly – it scares me. English was a class that I made it through but never excelled in – I will never write a novel. I am terrified that I won’t have any thing interesting to say. But I have decided that I will no longer be scared – that I will face that fear and be me. Write about what interests me and stirs my creativity.
I have started setting my goals for 2012 – both personal and business - and I am scared of failing again – of feeling disappointed in myself. But I won’t let that stop me from writing them down and trying. I want to be remembered as the girl who always followed her dreams and learned from her failures. Yes following my dreams has resulted in many failures – but it has also resulted in me being happy knowing that I at least tried!
And because every blog post is better with a picture – here is a picture of my number one fan!